My First Mother's Day Without You

I am a mother, of this I am sure. Jonah, I carried you for seven months and I loved you every minute. I took care of myself so that you would be the healthiest baby possible. I fed you colorful foods and strawberries, your favorite, every single day. I took you to the gym and on walks all the time. I thought about you every minute of the day, and I still do. I wanted everything to be perfect for you...I love you in ways I never knew that I would, Jonah. So, today as I sit at home and think of all the mothers who are quick to point out that I do not know what it is like to have a child and take care of him, I know they are wrong. I know that I was and am the best mother that I could ever dream of being. I love you sweet Jonah and I know that you have always known that and you always felt my love for you. And in case you are wondering, this little blessing is keeping me company today as I am missing you:

Your big sister, Ruby :)

Her precious puppy paws

I know that Ruby is a blessing that could only come from God, to help keep me company on the saddest and loneliest days without you here. And I think she does a pretty good job :).

I know you would have loved Ruby Doo and she would have loved you, too :). We are missing you today, Jonah...but that is nothing new.