Catching Up

I have been missing this blog lately. I have been so busy with IVF and my gestational carrier stuff (you can visit my other blog by clicking here) that I haven't really had a chance to blog here about the things that have been going through my mind. I'm still missing Jonah and Harper. With every injection that I have to take, the hurt grows a little more because if my body wasn't messed up, I might have them both here...therefore: NO INJECTIONS! That would be nice! Many months later and I still can't believe that this is my life...that I have lost two boys...that I have to go on living without them...I can honestly say, this is never how I pictured things.