My Sweet Friend

A very dear friend of mine lost her baby yesterday. She was 12 weeks along. Not to mention that her first pregnancy ended in the stillbirth of her baby girl, Olivia and for the past year my friend has been struggling with fertility issues... I am just so heartbroken for my friend and her husband. So devastated and mad and frustrated. I do not understand why she must face all of this difficulty and heartache. I do not understand why God allows these things...especially repeatedly. But I know I am not supposed to understand God's ways. I just can't stop thinking about my friend and the new found hope she had when she found out she was pregnant, only to have it all taken away again...and this just makes me mad. There is really no other way to put it. I am mad. At God. At life. At others who have no idea of the depth of her pain. At myself and my own loss. I am just plain mad. Olivia, Jonah and this sweet little baby...how we wish we could have you this side of Heaven...we can't wait to be with you one day.