Today's Thoughts

I am hurting today, Jonah and Harper. Not that it ever goes away, but it has hit me the past couple of hours. I want you two here with me. I want this endless pursuit of a child here on Earth to be fulfilled. I want to be whole again and not this basket case of a person that I am. But this ache in me is ripping me apart, day by day. I want people to "get" that everything else has faded away for me except for your Daddy and you two and thoughts of a child here on Earth. I want people to "get" that I am much too preoccupied with all of this to be worried about whether I told them this or told them that...misery absolutely loves company, thats for sure. I am tired and bitter and hurt and angry...and just all out sad about things. If I could just have you two here with me...